I like to think my brain is more sophisticated than a rat’s, but sometimes I’m not so sure.
In the same way that rats keep pushing a lever that, maybe once in 20 times, releases a food pellet, I have kept living with a phone that rings about the same percentage of the time when a call is coming in.
I alternately told myself that 1) it isn’t really broken because sometimes it works, and 2) it so uniquely and bizarrely broken that Apple cannot possibly figure it out.
Finally fed up with the irritation I called Apple, and after a long time of waiting on hold to darkly portentous classical music (Earth to Apple: people who like classical music do not ONLY listen to Wagner) I got a cheery advisor on the line who fixed the problem in one minute. Turns out I had inadvertently turned on Do Not Disturb, which means the phone only rings if I happen to be already using it when someone calls. Oh.
But however often I do this? We limp along with things, sometimes small, sometimes the big things – relationships, jobs, home services – partly because we are used to them and partly because occasionally they work for us. Once in awhile they are not terrible.
It takes a toll.
I had never really thought about this, but it’s fairly shocking to me to think about how often accepting and rationalizing what is only occasionally workable has been a feature of my life.
That is not the awakened and empowered life I’m interested in now. I want more for myself, and I certainly want more for you.
I’m setting an intention to notice when I start minimizing what doesn’t work. Clearing the obstacles won’t always be as fast as my one minute with the Apple advisor, but if something is an ongoing feature of my life, it certainly is worth the investment of my time.
With You on the Path,
What are you just “limping along” with?
What would it take for you to gather yourself to make a change?
How much Wagner are you willing to listen to if they put you on hold?